Fantasie Impromptu

Stripped Equilbrium

Finally a post ...and most likely going to be abt random thoughts I've been having as of today :)

So as everyone knw (mostly everyone...due to facebook and my frequent chats w/ ppl..) my life has been in complete chaos in the past weeks (or months..let's just say..)...many things (from Career Days, to conference..to coop....to work...to BASS/BMP...to school...to family and friends..) passed by...each giving me random thoughts and experiences....
and now the more I think of it and abt why my life has been in such a chaos is b/c..I've been missing something along (ever since last semester) --- Bible Study & more of this building relationship and restoring inner peace through my belief in Christ!

I don't think I've ever talked to any of my friends or even my family (w/ the exception of my mom who is equally or even more devoted than me) abt my belief, mainly b/c I'm just not a preaching type of person who can open so easily abt these what i consider rather personal matters......But yes, as you all know now...I am a devoted Christian (or I would like to be)...and why I say so....will be explained =)

As I have said...throughout the summer 4 months semester, my life somewhat slipped into its chaotic ways....there's just so much stuff happening at school/at work/at clubs/with family & friends.....just face it..I've been stressed out and in general falling behind in everything....
Attending WRC has made some part of it better :D ...but I'd have to say...it only restored my love for AIESEC and not my entire lifestyle...
But w/ the beginning of bible study this semester...(since last week rily)..I've calmed down lots and once again in controll of my life (or should I say ..I stripped off and submitted the burden of my life and everything once again in Lord's care and grace ^_^). This is really an experience: though I'm not quite catched up completely yet, but confidence/sense of direction/optimism are re-emerging! This is when I realized how important restoring my relationship w/ Christ has been to me!

I know I may sound geeky at times saying this, but at every Bible Study I am able to emotionally and mentally strip myself (funny word to use eh *wink*....the word just popped up in my mind at Bible Study today when I thought abt my emotional/mental state of being at the time as compared to Christina Aguilera's album...and really figure this is the best word to describe my feelings lol~). At every Bible Study, I am able to restore inner peace, reflect on my life (not just my goals or where I am at....also on my personal and some ethical values and of course everything else). At every Bible Study, I am able to look at where I am at...where I have to go, and often grow this constant awareness that Christ is always here w/ me in every step of my life..and there's nothing to worry abt. It is always at every Bible Study, I realize every step/opportunity I take in life ..it is my responsibility that I do it (best) to glorify Him.

And it is w/ this inner stability I'd say that I wish everyone who knws me (or readers of this blog) to find the same wellness in their lives =) (maybe not thru the same reasons/means..but I still wish the best to all~)

O man..I still rily wanna ramble on abt some thoughts I've had while I was at SFU art gallery 2 semesters ago...or one semester ( I can't remember lol~)...but pooey..I'd have to leave it till later as I am visiting my Econ TA very soon :(

posted by Lulu @ 1:52 PM