Tears Tonite!
tonite i watched a movie w/ my family (well more like my mom wanted to show me and my sis that movie)!....it's abt a Spanish mom & her daughter moving and adapting to U.S. life....in a way the movie reminded me of me & my mother and us adapting to life in Canada....
not too long ago (well Friday nite), me and my mom got into somewhat of an argument (thu it's not totally that...b/c I rarely speak a word when we dispute and argument is more both sided)....the argument was abt me getting home late & drinking...
In my view...I can clearly see why she's mad.....she's mad b/c she cares (she cares if I got in danger...she cares like every mom would for her daughter...she cares like I would if I had a daughter)
I can clearly see why it's hard for her to understand, why I didn't choose to explain to her instead of keeping silent.....
b/c when she was young..driking wasn't part of partying/socializing.....it would be almost useless for me to tell her no club in our school or any uni does not drink at parties.....
it was hard to tell her that I understand how dangerous it is for me to be alone out at nite in the street.....and so hard to let her knw I hav to do this sooner or later in my life....
and even more than that ....it's so hard to let her understand that she has always been my model that I look up to despite that reality I hav to be diff from her in some way.....simply b/c I adapt to Canadian life differently than her b/c of my age and where I grow up....
Watching the movie (really her making us watch the movie), I felt rily sad....b/c I knw what she is trying to tell me b/c I just dunno how to tell her w/o hurting her the fact that "I wanto be like you mom, but I am diff from you....."
It's so hard so hard.....and I rily should just step out of my comfort zone....I rily just should.....
posted by Lulu @ 1:40 AM
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